I`m very right brained, hate being told what to do, I`m not a "good soldier" in any sense of the word, and I`m disorganized. To the point that in high school I was diagnosed with Executive Dysfunction by an educational psychologist. (Example one: I HATED writing papers because I had the ideal paper in my mind but could not break it down into smaller parts and organize it. Papers are complex monsters to me. I get paralyzed and can`t deal with it. Example two: My mind likes to wander, and I can quickly get bored and lose interest if I`m doing the same thing for too long.) I have great respect for our armed forces and those who serve. I support the troops and the mission, but I was not designed for military service - by my nature, I would do more harm than good because I would make mistakes. Mistakes in the military get people killed.
And I`m married.
When I did have a cubicle job, I was always coming up with new ideas that could be applied to the company. Some were used, many were not (but that`s ok - home run hitters strike out more often than batters just trying to get on base). So rather than slowly killing myself trying to be something I am not (namely: reliable, punctual, organized, submissive, by-the-book, letter of the law to the T, conventional, detail-oriented, Type-A, and left brained), I`m going to offer my services as a creativity consultant in two ways: 1) put me on a problem and together we will develop ideas and solutions, and 2) I can help others develop their own creativity to solve problems, create new products or services, improve processes, etc.
I`m never going to be a CEO or a manager. If for some crazy and wild unforseen reason I did become a manager or CEO, I would operate like Ronald Reagan did - have a core philosophy, identify three objectives to accomplish, everything else (including how to accomplish the objectives) is details, so go sort out the details. That`s right, I would delegate just about everything. I`m not a manager - it`s just not my nature. And I`ve tried nuture to make myself more left-brained but it`s just not going to happen.
I wish I could be more left-brained. I wish I could develop those skills. It would be very helpful. But like I said before, instead of trying to be something I`m not (and in so doing, driving myself to depression and insanity), I will "embrace the horror" and accept the fact that I was cut from a different cloth than most. It`s not right for me to follow the conventional and traditional path; I have to blaze my own trail.
And I love Star Trek!
