You SO nailed it!! LOL!!
We all use some sort of barrier between our "real" self and the rest of
the world. Even as toddlers we have a blanket or doll or something, no
matter how fragile and small. But it represents a line in the sand
between "self" and "dissolution."
When I was on stage I didn`t mind so much if the audience didn`t like a
particular song. I could always say to myself, "Hey...I didn`t write
the song! It`s not MY fault people don`t like it!" :-)
Then I was a lead singer for about a minute and a half. Suddenly, I had
to come out from behind the piano, stand up in front with only a mic
stand in front of me. I felt defenseless without that "big" keyboard in
front of me.
Performing arts are difficult because there`s no pretense of you and an
audience. Public speaking is a little better, stand-up comedy is the
hardest. But when you put your personal ideas, imagination, and
creation on the line, right there, in front of the whole wide world,
you let go of that security blanket.
Being in school you can always say to yourself, "Well, I`m not *really*
doing this yet....I`m just practicing. It`s not like there`s $10,000 on
the line if I make a mistake, right? I`m just a student."
Now it`s real. :-D So, yup............stage fright!
Home staging is "once removed." Your client is getting rid of the house
anyway, so even if they don`t like what you`ve done, so what? It won`t
be there long. But interior design is long-term. Your clients are going
to live with what YOU did, day and night for a long time afterward.
There`s a lot riding on it, so it`s a whole lot scarier.
Maybe that`s what`s giving you the illusion of a better career path?
Remember that fine line between "self" and "disillusion." :-)