Bit of backstory: last fall, around October or so, I fell into a really weird funk that I haven`t been able to shake... lost all my motivation, couldn`t think clearly, waking up tired & suffering from insomnia, feeling prone to self-pity. I`ve been wondering all this time what the heck is wrong with me. Is it because it`s winter? Am i secretly depressed about turning 40 soon? Is it something in my diet or my environment? I never could figure it out and I`ve been struggling to get on with things in spite of feeling so crappy, with limited success.
Then this past Sunday I bit down on my lunch and sent shockwaves of intense pain up the side of my head and down my neck.... it was so bad I really thought I might faint. Monday I got an emergency dentist appoint, and it turns out I had a badly abscessed tooth; what`s more, it had been like that since last fall. The culprit all this time has been an infection festering just inches from my brain, and I had no idea! How scary is that??
The dentist put me on antiobiotics & painkillers right away, then Tuesday morning I went in for emergency oral surgery to have the tooth extracted & the infection cleaned out. I was under for the whole thing but according to the nurse it was utterly disgusting. (Not sure why but she was intent on me knowing this.)
Incredibly, by Wednesday morning I was feeling better than I had in months in spite of the surgery pain. and all week I`ve been feeling more and more like myself again... sleeping soundly at night for my usual 6-7 hours, waking up refreshed without an alarm clock (god I hate alarm clocks), my head is clear and I feel focused and alert. I`ve gotten more done the past few days, even with a mouth full of gauze, than I have probably in the entire past few weeks.
Then today, I received an email from one of my clients that included this happy little tidbit:
"...got another call from a potential client off the site yesterday. damn you`re good. that`s more calls in two weeks than i`ve gotten in 7 years!"
In my hazy-brained funk I almost forgot that I actually really love what I do. I love kicking ass on behalf of my clients. Man its good to be back!